After 2 long weeks of feeling like crap. I am sure this time I am better. Getting sick just 2 weeks into this "Stay at Home Mom" gig, had me feeling like a failure. I find it very interesting that when we get sick that we have this impending feeling that we are never going to be okay again. Only to wake up one day and feel great again. In fact, better because we felt so bad. Funny thing is that I will probably think the same thing next time.

Oh well. Thank the good Lord that I am better. It won't be the last time that this mom has to drag herself out of bed with a 102 temp because someone wants to play the "Fishie Game"

This blog has been neglected while I go thru the yuck that was my first trimester. I have been so tired and the motion sickness was bad! We (me and the new baby) seem to have turned the hormonal corner. Ryan is CrAzY and going non stop like a madman. His last day of daycare is tomorrow. Although it is bitter sweet, I think I am ready to look this "stay at home mom" thing in the face. Yep. Combined with Chris doing so well at work and my current pregnant state, the job hunt is off and I am focusing on my favorite things in the world. My family and my home.

So wish me luck...

Sometimes you need a good cry. Sometimes you need a moment to yourself. Sometimes you need a long hot shower to wash away the day. Then there are those days you just need a pepperoni and cheese sandwich at 10:30 in the morning...

Yep I am pregnant!


This pregnancy has already been so different than the first. (Dare i day that it is a girl?) And my life is already becoming less mine. I am fighting fatigue like there is no tomorrow. I feel guilty because I just cannot get up sometimes and get things done. My logical mind calls me lazy. With Ryan, I was working. I fought fatigue hard and just kept going. "Gotta keep going, this isn't so bad." Well I am RESTING, this time. I have noticed just a little extra sleep keeps me in the game longer each day and my mood more even. Chris likes that...


Eating. I want to eat healthly. I belong to these webboards and all these moms are eating well balanced diets. Fruit, Veggies, Whole Grains. My question is how do they have room? I am too full from the Captain Crunch and the Moose Tracks ice cream. I am trying to eat healthy. I am. But I would like to tell these women to stop telling lies and admit you are coveting the Krispy Kreme. Speaking of which, only two more weeks until Orlando and I can get a Dunkin Doughnut!!!


Lastly. And I swore that I wasn't going to posted tummy pictures this time. But this totally amazes and is starting to scare me. I have been told that you show early with subsquent pregnancies. But is this possible? Please ignore the inevitable back fat. For some reason, pregnancy immediately places a roll right under my ribs...

15 weeks 1 day with Ryan

6 weeks 5 days with #2

I saw today that Salary.com did a study of what a mom is worth as far as salary goes if she was to get paid. Get this. A stay at home mom would receive an annual salary of $123,000. This is what it would cost you if you had to outsource this type of work. I thought to myself, "What about working moms?" Well the salary for a working mom would be $76,000 annually.

Aren't we lucky the rewards far out weigh the actual work????

Life isn't complicated at all right now. Chris is busy at work. Such a blessing. Ryan loves preschool and I am enjoying my new life as CEO of the Russell house. I did apply for a job yesterday that I think I dreamed up here in town. So fingers crossed. The job hunt has been real quiet. I guess, I expected more responses. But so far really quiet. There has been a lot of learning for me. Learning to trust that everything is as it should be right now.
I have my first appoinment with the OB on Friday. Really it will be with the Nurse Midwife. All the early things that happen when they are starting your prenatal care. I realized the other day that I am really gun shy when it comes to having babies. Don't know why? I have only been through a few difficulties. lol
I am actually afraid that I will show up at the doctor and they will say, "Sorry, Ms. Russell, your not pregnant?"

I think that I am going to have to become a napper. This new baby is kicking my butt already. I absolutely loath myself for lack of energy. Not because I think its not okay. But I want to be active. Today. I napped and tonight will be better. Guess I should have taken my cue from Ryan.