Sometimes you need a good cry. Sometimes you need a moment to yourself. Sometimes you need a long hot shower to wash away the day. Then there are those days you just need a pepperoni and cheese sandwich at 10:30 in the morning...

Yep I am pregnant!


This pregnancy has already been so different than the first. (Dare i day that it is a girl?) And my life is already becoming less mine. I am fighting fatigue like there is no tomorrow. I feel guilty because I just cannot get up sometimes and get things done. My logical mind calls me lazy. With Ryan, I was working. I fought fatigue hard and just kept going. "Gotta keep going, this isn't so bad." Well I am RESTING, this time. I have noticed just a little extra sleep keeps me in the game longer each day and my mood more even. Chris likes that...


Eating. I want to eat healthly. I belong to these webboards and all these moms are eating well balanced diets. Fruit, Veggies, Whole Grains. My question is how do they have room? I am too full from the Captain Crunch and the Moose Tracks ice cream. I am trying to eat healthy. I am. But I would like to tell these women to stop telling lies and admit you are coveting the Krispy Kreme. Speaking of which, only two more weeks until Orlando and I can get a Dunkin Doughnut!!!


Lastly. And I swore that I wasn't going to posted tummy pictures this time. But this totally amazes and is starting to scare me. I have been told that you show early with subsquent pregnancies. But is this possible? Please ignore the inevitable back fat. For some reason, pregnancy immediately places a roll right under my ribs...

15 weeks 1 day with Ryan

6 weeks 5 days with #2

I saw today that Salary.com did a study of what a mom is worth as far as salary goes if she was to get paid. Get this. A stay at home mom would receive an annual salary of $123,000. This is what it would cost you if you had to outsource this type of work. I thought to myself, "What about working moms?" Well the salary for a working mom would be $76,000 annually.

Aren't we lucky the rewards far out weigh the actual work????

Life isn't complicated at all right now. Chris is busy at work. Such a blessing. Ryan loves preschool and I am enjoying my new life as CEO of the Russell house. I did apply for a job yesterday that I think I dreamed up here in town. So fingers crossed. The job hunt has been real quiet. I guess, I expected more responses. But so far really quiet. There has been a lot of learning for me. Learning to trust that everything is as it should be right now.
I have my first appoinment with the OB on Friday. Really it will be with the Nurse Midwife. All the early things that happen when they are starting your prenatal care. I realized the other day that I am really gun shy when it comes to having babies. Don't know why? I have only been through a few difficulties. lol
I am actually afraid that I will show up at the doctor and they will say, "Sorry, Ms. Russell, your not pregnant?"

I think that I am going to have to become a napper. This new baby is kicking my butt already. I absolutely loath myself for lack of energy. Not because I think its not okay. But I want to be active. Today. I napped and tonight will be better. Guess I should have taken my cue from Ryan.