Thursday, May 6, 2010

I sit here this morning really down.  What a fine line we walk as parents between making a decision based on financial security and emotional happiness.  Chris and I are so frustrated that we can hardly speak.  After wasting our time with a buyer that obviously had no intentions of paying what we need for our house, we are faced with the huge reality that we might be fooling ourselves to think we can get out of this with anything extra.  I regret nothing. (Well maybe the Dairy Queen Blizzard, that I had yesterday out of depression.)  We would be be in the exact same position if Chris had never appled for his promotion.  Staying here for him would have meant a big cut in pay and the risk of a very unhappy man.  So on we went.  He left and I stayed behind.  To have a baby, to wrangle a 2 year old, to sell a house, and miss what was our perfect little family.  We are faced with so many questions today?  Questions that, from watching the news, I know we are not alone in making.  When is enough enough?  Will we know when to throw in the towel and just take what we can and run?  Is it okay to go from owning a great house to renting an okay one, so we can be together?  There is a lot in the news right now about people having nothing.  I mean being bankrupt, no money.  We did what we needed to make sure we didn't go under.  And we are now staring at the fact that we may have to start over.  Everyone is struggling right now.  Everyone...

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